I’d say my current and urgent quest is to feel loved and “emotionally safe”. All that without being dependent on a particular person.
That comes completely in opposition to all my stories where a special girl would be there for me and I could always count on her!
That is exactly where lies the difficulty…
For my quest to come to and end (and my life to start), I have to find this love and safety mostly everywhere around me. And for that my attitude plays a major role.
You’ve already experienced moments in your life where you are very enthusiastic and you expect nothing from no one. Then you feel connected to most of the persons around you, everyone feels your energy and wants to be part of it.
In a way you created your own emotional safety by connecting to others!
I know it is the key…! And for that I must totally forget all stories where a wonderful girl would be the key to my happiness…
So maybe should I just create a better new story in my mind. Focus on what I love, on what would be the ideal situation, with several loveable girls around me, but no one being irreplaceable. And insisting on a story that is far better than my current story!
