Even though I’ve noticed several times the inconsistence of my actions with my thoughts, it’s not enough to change my behavior.
I’m focusing on creating another kind of relationship with girls, so that I stop feeling dependent on the love of a specific girl.
For that I’ve always thought it would just be extremely nice to have close relationships with several girls, as a friend. I would share a lot of love and beautiful connections with them, so that I wouldn’t need one specific girl in order to feel close to the feminine side.
However, I’ve noticed for a certain time now that everytime I meet a girl I think of her in terms of potential girlfriend or not. If not, I never try to develop the relationship, although I could feel very well with the girl.
I have noticed that several times. Each time I think how obvious it is! I have to change my behavior and open up to create friendship relations with girls.
But in spite of noticing that again and again, I realize that’s clearly not something I do naturally. The result is that I never “think” of acting differently!
Very strange isn’t it? Well tonight I thought of that in the middle of a party, and so I’ve been able to change my behavior with at least one girl. That’s a start ; )
What I notice here is that we are so much envelopped in our habits and patterns, our image of who we are, how we act, and what is the world, that thinking about change has no effect by itself.
There is clearly a need to condition our mind another way. And that has everything to do with a conscious and determined choice with very clear set of actions!
As you can guess, that’s what I’m focusing on now…!
