Here are my results of a little exercise I did to try to understand my problems of depedency on a girl.
The exercise
- I wrote down that I was very attached to a girl
- Then I asked the question “Why?”
- I answered this question
- I repeated the cycle several times
The results
Several answered seemed very important. In the opposite order to which they came, here they are:
- Love is exclusive
- I am afraid of the authority of this world
- She doesn’t find what she wants with me
- I’m afraid of loosing her love and attention
Looks a lot like a scenario of a little boy afraid of his father. Then his mother prefered to give her love and attention to this father rather than him.
I’d say that could very well be the initial reason of those feelings.
What do I do with that?
That’s now the real question.
I’d say that I have some wrong perceptions to change.
Of course if I could have lived that to a certain extent when I was very young, that doesn’t reflect at all the reality. And if I have continued to live through those emotions, that’s now around 35 years that I’ve experienced the world through this false reality.
So the reality I should accept to see now would be:
- Love is shared
- Nobody can prevent me from sharing love
- I need nothing more to share and experience love
- Love is always with me
That’s what I’m going to develop in my life through different techniques. That way I hope to change my perceptions, and so my reactions, as quickly as possible.
