Usually I prefer to focus on what I want, so that I develop it.
But today I’d like to rest a little on a fear that I feel way too much!
The fear of being alone…
I just want to make it totally aware so that I try to manage it as efficiently as possible.
First I would say that my stories are at the source of this situation. My negative and false stories, of course!
So I understand that being alone is a situation I create, and that it is mainly conceived in my mind. Then what happens in my life is just the consequence of that.
It is nonetheless a fearful situation! We normally try to escape it, or at least we try to escape the feelings it brings, at any cost.
However I’ve never wanted to escape it at any cost, because I understand I am fully responsible for that. And trying to diminish this sensation will only make me turn my head to avoid the situation. While the whole situation remains exactly the same!
So yes, I admit it, I prefer to feel this fear until I understand my misconceptions that are at the source of this situation. I would even say that over the years I have dropped certain activities that helped me to reduce these situations. Because in the end, all that would not give me a real satisfaction.
So yes, those last years I have felt more than ever this fear of being alone!
But I can say that it never killed me. In the end I’m still there, and I have even taken several mesures along the road to look for a better situation. And at least I’ve made headway and become more aware of certain aspects.
Now I don’t want to remain with a negative sensation that won’t help me to go further.
So what are my solutions ?!!
First, stories are in our head. And nobody, really nobody, forces us to continue to play them!
Secondly, love and enthusiasm seem to be the opposite. Which means that focusing on and growing those emotions will probably change the whole situation! At the very least the negative stories that are involved won’t be compatible with those emotions…
I’m testing that right now ; )
Now how growing loving emotions will bring me loving connections with loving people? I must admit I don’t really know…
But I also think that knowing how is not our problem.
Knowing what is our only duty!
