I notice that in order to have a nice and “easy” life, I focused my attention on what seemed to give me control of my life:
- my job, activities, things I can have…
And little by little, I ended in a life with no real interest, no spice. And my motivation to live a great life meant less and less to me. I was more or less disenchanted by my life…
Then I realised I was just overlooking what was really exciting me! Not only had I put those things at the end of my list of “things to do”, but I also thought my material life would bring them to me. But I was really avoiding the most difficult things -or at least what I thought was the most difficult things- to tackle. All the things that would expose me, put me at risk, make me show my difficulties…
All those things are much more personal, and so are more touchy. But they are also much more in my control. More important, they are the things that really make me happy, because they ARE me!
What are they? To make it simple, I would say everything where I have the opportunity to really express myself (orally, but also physically…), and to share things with other:
- dancing (that I recently started with Salsa), meeting new people, doing new things, learning, teaching, helping…
All the things we usually think we should care about only when we have done everything we have to. You know, when we are young we have to do our homework first 😉 Then we have to get a good and serious job first, then we have to manage our finances first, and so on…
That was exactly what I thought until recently where I found out I could only be good at any kind of activity, or work, if I was first happy and feeling alive!
Connection, not only to my deepest feelings and motivations, but also to others, is what makes me feel alive.
If you feel your life is a little boring, not really exciting, I suggest you start to ask yourself what would make you really feel excited NOW. Not after what achievement you would feel happy, but what kind of thing would change your life right away!
In order to feel alive, we need to express what we really are, what we really believe. Without it, I believe we are just starting to die.
So if you’re in this case, start to live again!
Don’t be afraid, there’s only you and your life here…
